ORIGIN STORY - Who I am, my gifts, my recent journey through reconstructive breast surgery and why this S*XY REBEL SPIRIT space exists.

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There comes a time when we have to stop

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negotiating with ourselves.

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We have to start embracing

those irreversible shifts that

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lead to the most unapologetic,

raw expressions of ourselves.

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This is Sexy Rebel Spirit, the

private podcast by House of Andrea

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that drops live every single day

into our exclusive telegram space.

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If you are not in that space and you

wanna join the conversation, you'll

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find the link to it in the show notes.

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Its sexuality, its

rebellion, its spirituality.

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And how these three things are

simply, the expression of who you are.

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This is your calibration portal and

this is where it all gets to change.

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So let's dive in.

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Hello, gorgeous.

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I hope you are having a magical day.

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It is Saturday afternoon here in

Australia, and it is a beautiful, hot day.

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The sun is shining and I just got

this really strong pool to sit

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down and finally share with you.

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The catalyst for opening this space

and start to really set the frequency

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that we are going to be in for the

next infinite amount of time, um, as

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we journey along really embracing this.

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Sexuality, this sexual, sovereign,

rebellious, raw, true energy that

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we're stepping into here in this

channel, in this transmission space.

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And so I thought.

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To start this, to start the

conversation around the catalyst.

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I thought it might be really

powerful for anyone in this space

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who hasn't met me yet or hasn't

worked in close proximity with you.

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I thought I'm gonna share with you

a little bit around me, my gifts,

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how my gifts came about, and in

the context of what this major life

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event that I've just gone through in

the last couple of weeks that has.

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Absolutely to its core,

shaken my world completely.

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That has been the fuel and the fire,

and the birthplace of this brand new

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energy, this brand new energy that is

riding currently on the back of the fire

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horse as we step into this new year and

ve forward in charge into the: 2026

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I wanna give you a little bit of context

as to who I am, where I've been, and

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what has just happened to really help

you attune to this calibration point,

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this frequency that is building in

this space, and why, why really, and

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putting my entire body, my voice, my

spirit, my service behind this energy.

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So firstly, hello.

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Welcome.

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So lovely to meet you If

we haven't met before.

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I am Andrea Lee Matthews.

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That is my birth name, and it is a

name that I haven't used for a long

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time, actually claiming my name and.

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Stepping forward as Andrea Lee Matthews

is actually something that I have only

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really adopted over the last six months.

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If you've been in my world for a

while, you might know me as Andy,

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like forever and ever and ever and

since, ever since I was a little girl.

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I was Andy, my dad gave me the

nickname when I was born, and.

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The energy of Andrea growing up.

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I don't know if you've had this

experience yourself, but this energy of

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Andrea when I was growing up was like.

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I only ever got it from my

mother when I was in trouble.

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You know, like she'd stand at the

back door and yell into the backyard.

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Andrea, I've got a bone to pick with you.

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She would say, and I'm

like, uhoh, I'm in trouble.

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What have I done now?

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And you know, like I was cheeky,

so I'd usually done something.

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So I adapted this like.

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Energy of like, I'm not

Andrea, I don't like Andrea.

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I, I am Andy.

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And these were these kind of like

unconscious moments in my life.

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And I'm sure you've, you've had

these two of like putting on a mask

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of like, I'm not Andrea, I'm Andy.

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You know, like, it's like a stripping, um.

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Not so much as stripping.

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It's more of a like, I'm going to play

this part, or I'm going to be this thing.

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And sometimes claiming a name or

an essence can be really powerful,

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but sometimes we do it because

we are like popping on a layer.

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We're popping on a, a mask

of, oh, I don't like that.

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Or I don't wanna be that, or I

don't wanna be associated with

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that, so I'm going to be this.

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We make these choices and this.

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Need to be this avatar of Andy,

which served me really well and

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really powerfully for a long time.

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But it was one of those early

precedences of putting on a, a mask or

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choosing, oh, something that I wasn't,

it's like, I am not Andrea, because

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that equals being in trouble so far.

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Therefore, I'm gonna put on this.

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And throughout my lifetime there were

so many different masks or slicing off

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of myself or pieces that I contorted

to try and get away from those

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uncomfortable feelings that we have.

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And so.

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I've just been through the last couple

of years has been this real, facing

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a lot of these old places where I was

still wearing masks and stripping that

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back, stripping that back, stripping

that back, and some of it has been

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conscious and intentional choosing to

really embody my spirituality and my

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ownership of who I am and this beautiful.

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Energy and entity and soul of Andrea

Lee Matthews has been this beautiful

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choice, but there's been so many other

parts of me that have pushed me through

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the fine, the fire, through the Phoenix

transformation over the last few years

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to really own my gifts, particularly as.

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See her as a psychic, as a shaman, as

someone who has all of their psychic

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intuitive, clear sensitivities, open.

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You know, I see touch, taste,

know, sense, um, emotionally work.

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I can see energy, I can see

timelines, past and future.

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I have abilities to step into the

acacia and work with past life

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records and future timelines, and.

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Channel source and work in trance and all

of these different beautiful abilities

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that I have worked in, this stripping back

and this claiming of who I am underneath.

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All of that has really accelerated over

the last few years, and it's because.

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My, my soul, my guides, my

angels, the universe has put me

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through these, I don't wanna say

tests, because they're not tests.

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It's like, it's not about

testing whether I'm worthy.

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It's not about testing whether I'm

brave enough or can do something.

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But it's like these real

moments of stripping back.

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And this started, I.

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Actually have only really been deeply

in trust with working with ethos and

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energy since my mid to late thirties.

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I know, like I've had all of these

gifts ever since I was a child.

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'cause I'm actually third

generation, even more than that.

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But third, sort of like human spoken,

contemporary spoken generation

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of having such a beautiful,

powerful trust and, um, gifts.

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It goes a long way back in, in my

line as well as in my past lifeline.

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But when I was a child, I had

these gifts, but they weren't.

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Online.

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It wasn't like I started seeing

ghosts or had imaginary friends or

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started seeing things or knowing

things like sometimes you hear other

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mediums, um, talk about, like, that

was part of my mother's journey.

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She had the abilities

very present early on.

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It's like I had the gifts, but.

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This masking happened so early on in

my little life, my little life as a

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small child, that those gifts never

really had a chance to come through.

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And so it wasn't until the stripping, the,

the masking, the forsaking of who I was,

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the clamping down on the rebellion energy.

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There was a lot of rebellion there,

but I was still, you know, the good

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girl who wanted to follow the rules.

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Really being brave enough to uncover.

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That didn't happen until I was in my

mid to late thirties, and it happened

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because there was a culmination

of being in a really, really

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misaligned relationship that I had.

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Willingly moved into and moved through

as the typical good girl fiance that

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sacrificed themselves, you know,

changed their name, changed what they

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were, changed what they look like, got

rid of all their friends, you know,

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made their partner their life from a

place of love, blind love at the time.

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But I became so.

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Disconnected from this, this Andrea

Lee Matthews of what I know now.

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This soul, this energy, this

source, this identity that is me.

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I became so disconnected from that,

that the universe started presenting

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me with some significant challenges,

significant breakdowns, blockages,

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health, um, implications that.

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Made me start to face the fact that my

soul was craving for me to hear her.

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Was craving for me to claim

my sovereignty, to claim

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who I was to give up on.

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Trying to contort and trying to mask

myself to be palatable for what I

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thought the construct that I had

built, that I felt the world needed

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me to be, to feel safe to fit in.

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You know, there was a lot of incidences

of, uh, assault and I won't go into

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that on this particular message,

but we will dive into it because I

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think it's really important to put

voice to a lot of the truth and.

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Stories that we are in, but lots of

different sexual, physical, abusive

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incidences over my lifetime just kept

compounding this beating and this

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breakdown of having a broken identity

that was willing to contort themself.

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But in this situation, this time

period, this relationship, it's like

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I started having experiences of.

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Difficulty, health breakdown, depression,

um, really difficult times getting

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things to happen that's made me start

to face some of these areas that I was

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just so self-sacrificing in and just.

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Uh, betraying myself in that the door

started to open for Lillian, she would've

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messaged here or a little hit there, or

a little wvu or a little, like something

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dramatic would happen with my health.

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And then manifesting like my mom.

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And I, uh, we were talking

about this the other day.

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Even, although I had buried my gifts,

my ability to manifest was there.

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I just had buried, I had labeled

it with language of serendipitous

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and you know, like, oh, that's

good luck and what a miracle.

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You know, those types of things.

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But these things started to grow

and I was pushed to the point of

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finally leaving that relationship.

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And in doing that, allowing

myself to say, no enough, I am not

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going to abandon myself anymore.

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I'm not going to contort my

body my life into a way that

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makes you feel proud of me.

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And you feel.

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In the version of me that you can

love, I'm not gonna do that anymore.

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And as soon as I started making

some of those brave decisions,

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my gifts started to come online.

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But so too did the breakdown, the

physical breakdown of my body.

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And in 2021, my body had just been

contorted and stripped back and.

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Uh, forsaken for so long that I ended

up having to have a hysterectomy.

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My body was in such a mess, uh, that

the only solution at the time was.

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A hysterectomy and that was really

difficult to face, but it was the

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catalyst of this true stripping back this

message and sign from the universe that

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actually I don't need to grasp and grip

and hang on to the things that I think

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I have to have to make me a valuable.

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Woman that that make me

meaningful, lovable in this world.

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And so my body started to show me.

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Where a, it had suffered and, and was at

its breaking point, but also where I could

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start the grieving process and the letting

go process of letting things drop away.

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That I actually didn't need to love

myself, to feel myself to, to be

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in connection with source and my

gifts and my intuition, and with

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all of these significant health

challenges that kept coming my way.

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More and more of me would step forward,

more trust, more voice, more courage.

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I was able to start podcasts and I went

from being, having a, a high flying

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corporate career in, I was chief strategy

officer at this point for like financial

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organizations and medical institutions

and things that were like grounded in data

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and statistics and futurism and trend and

proof and evidence and predictability.

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That started to fall away to make

room for intuition channeling.

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So psychic foresight, mediumship, like it

is crazy when you're in that wash to think

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that you can go from one point of absolute

determin ability to complete trust.

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In the universe completely trust

in the unseen and to be able

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to see what sits in the unseen.

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But as soon as I had the hysterectomy and

I was laid up on the couch in my recovery,

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and I made that powerful decision to start

coming back to the truth of who I was, and

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I started my very first, it was business,

intuitive business coaching business.

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It was $10 an hour.

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And I was like, well, if I'm going to

open my gifts, I'm going to do it in the

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lens of something that I know, which is.

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You know, corporate business and strategy.

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And so I started that business, but

again, it was calling these pieces

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home for me and starting to trust

myself more and more and more.

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And that stripping back continued

over the next amount of years to

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bringing us forward to the catalyst

that opened this particular space.

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And even.

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This place where I'm in now, which is

in deep, deep service to you to source,

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and to helping us all start to really

come home to these con, beautiful,

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powerful connections that we have,

not only with our bodies, but with our

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spirituality, and without inner rebellion.

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With that inner person who is finally

ready to take off the masks and

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take off the labels and take off.

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The hiding of these certain crazy out

there, beautiful, powerful versions

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of ourselves that the universe

and the world is just craving for

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us to own and start expressing.

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I found out in January 2nd this

year that I had something called

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breast implant illness, silicon

poisoning and potential lymphoma.

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And it was another moment where I was

like, oh my God, like my body is still

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reeling and trying to heal under all

of this pressure that I had put on.

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Because when I went through puberty

as a child, as I said, well, this

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masking and trying to fit in, any women

in this space will know puberty is.

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Tough.

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There's so much changing.

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Your body's changing.

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Your hormones are changing.

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How you feel about yourself is changing.

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The people and kids around you are

changing and what they want and like,

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and expect to make them feel safe as

well as to make them feel cool and

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validated is also rapidly changing.

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And we are trying so hard just to not

feel abnormal, just to, to feel cool

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and, and in the crew, but my body.

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At that very, very young age, it

only ever developed one breast.

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So I went through puberty with one

beautiful breast developing and one

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knot at all, like nothing on the right

hand side, the masculine side of my

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body, and one developing on the other.

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And so I.

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I was so deeply ashamed, and again, more

covering came up, you know, the oversized

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jumpers, the, the hunched shoulders to

try and hide the, the difference, you

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know, the not, not wanting to do PE and

getting changed in the, the well physical

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education and not getting changed in the

girls' locker rooms and things like that.

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And so.

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I had a lot of shame and disconnection

even more with my body that when I was

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18 and I'd finally stopped developing,

I went and, um, found a beautiful

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surgeon who could help me to put an

implant in on the side where there was

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nothing developing and balance out.

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My physical female form so that I could

finally not feel broken, not feel ugly

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and deformed, and it worked to help

me find a way to start loving my body.

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Even though some of the damage and

the masking and that hiding had

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already started, that contorting had

already started, but at least, at

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least I thought I could wear normal

clothes and start to be normal again.

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But fast forward 26 years.

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That implant started poisoning me and

I didn't know about it, and I started

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having a whole bunch of, lots of

different health challenges and you know.

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So often when we have health

challenges, we, we blame ourselves.

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Maybe I didn't look

after myself well enough.

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Maybe I didn't eat enough.

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Maybe there's something wrong with me.

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But this shedding that had started

in my thirties of this stripping

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bag, it's all part of the process.

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And so in January I finally found

out that that rebuilding those

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breasts that I had attached so much

of my identity to, they had to go.

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They, they, they were

killing me essentially.

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And so I, three weeks ago, I'm

currently three, three and a

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half weeks postoperative as I

sit here and record this for you.

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I, I had the implant removed and

I had my other breast, um, which,

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you know, I had a, I was double D

by the time they, you know, put the

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implant in and, and balanced me.

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I, uh, had to have all of

that taken, you know, and.

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So there was this huge stripping back

that I had to go through this, these

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waves of grief, of trauma of, I'm

going back, I, you know, I have to

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go back to that body that I hated.

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You know, it came, it brought

up all of that trauma from those

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feelings of being a teenager.

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And, you know, why can't I have

a body like every other woman?

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And does it still make me

female if I don't have a uterus?

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Breast and all of these things,

this grief of the stripping pack.

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But can I tell you, and this, this

is the birthplace of this space and

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why I wanna tell you this story.

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So even although I've now had this

major hysterectomy to reorganize,

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you know, my reproductive, remove

my reproductive system and, and

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reorganize the lower chakras of my body.

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Now I've had these breasts removed

and I just wanna say I got the

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clear, clear lymphoma, um, clearance.

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So I'm, I'm, I'm well, and

I'm on the pathway now to

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healing, which is beautiful.

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But now I have this body that I

have never felt this much love for.

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Ever.

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And when I got told earlier in January

that this was what was going to have to

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happen, I never expected, never in my life

expected that this is how I would feel.

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And so what came flooding through is

this intrinsic connection between.

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Allowing ourselves to really tap

into that essence of who we are, that

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rebellious, sovereign ungovernable, raw

humanness and soul source that exists

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within us, allowing the stripping back.

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And it doesn't have to be physical

like mine, but this emotional.

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Energetic stripping back reveal

removal of masks, revealing reveal

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of layers, trusting that there is

something that exists deep within

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us that is powerful and essential

and real, and beautiful, and divine.

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Allows us to finally start becoming

more in love with ourselves

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and this feeling of self love.

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I made this commitment to myself

when I went in the week before I went

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into surgery, and even the morning

of, and moments before taking off,

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um, into the operating theater.

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I just kept saying, I just kept saying,

source, universe, guides, angels,

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ancestors like, help me, love myself.

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I just wanna love myself.

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Let me guide me, support me to

find greater and greater depths

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of love for my body, for myself,

because I know I am beautiful.

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I know there is power that

resides within me that.

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Is here to help the world, is to

help other men, other women, anyone

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on this planet who is ready to

start awakening to their gifts.

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I know that is my purpose, to

help them, and I need to find

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these greater depths of self love.

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Help me find that.

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And I can tell you that is exactly

what has been unfolding over

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the last three and a half weeks.

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And I tell you, I had the dressings

removed, uh, a week ago and then

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again changed, um, uh, two days ago.

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And the whole level of tears that

just pour out and out and out

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and out and out, and it was this.

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Like seeing yourself for the first

time after you've had such major

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reconstructive work done is hard

because it does bring up grief.

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It does bring up memories of past, or

it makes you question who you are, but

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underneath that grief is just this.

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Powerful sense of if I can get through

this, I can get through anything.

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If I can love myself so deeply and so

dearly underneath all of this, then woo.

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I am unstoppable.

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I am able to do anything.

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And this stripping back this, I

won't say it's the final piece

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because I do believe like.

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You know, there's so many more

things in my journey to continue to

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uncover and strip back and reveal.

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But this last one, like the

hysterectomy was catalytic it or it,

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it gave me that pause in that moment

to be like, okay, what is here?

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And start my.

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Developing all my gifts, going to,

you know, circles and working in

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gurus and, and learning and training

and developing and trusting and, and

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expanding my business and working with

clients and, and bringing everything

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on and on and on and on board.

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On board.

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But it was very strongly just

in the spiritual gifts realm.

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I, I was still quite disconnected from

my body, but this last piece is like.

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There is this inner craving to connect

that spiritual and that spirituality

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now to body, to the body, to love, to

sexuality, to say, and claim and express

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all of the things that still to this

day, I'm been expressed like as a child

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I was, um, you know, I was a young teen.

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I was attracted to both men and women.

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I loved the female body.

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The first girl I ever kissed, it was

a girl, like it wasn't a boy, but

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society told me that it was easier

to be boy, crazy to fit in and to

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have a boyfriend and to give, you

know, as you get older, like use sex

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to gain love and affection and just

give out whatever is needed so that.

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People love you.

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People find you cool and fun and all of

that kind of stuff, and your body just

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becomes the, the thing that you give away.

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It's like the trading card to feel value

or to feel loved, and, and that became

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my experience, whereas now it's like.

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Well, no, I'm a sovereign, rebellious.

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Rebellious in terms of brave, not

rebellious in terms of like just

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breaking the rules because I'm angry.

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It's this rebellion, this sovereignty

of like, no, there's things that I

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feel are important to talk about and.

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Put my energy behind and serve and

there's this real rebellious energy

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that's coming through their throat chakra

around speaking and claiming and owning.

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But there's a sexual wanting to love

my body no matter what it looks like.

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And going through this.

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Beautiful grief processing journey

of having the next layer of it

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stripped back because I need less

than I think having perfect breasts.

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You know, being a childbearing woman,

like looking a certain way, having

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a certain lifestyle, living in the

fancy suburb in the fancy house.

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All of that stuff that we thought that

I thought was important on my journey.

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Spirit is just like the

universe is just like, no girl.

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Like you need way less than you think

you need, and here we'll show you and

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you are gonna learn to love yourself.

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Even more than you ever thought you

could, that you ever thought you was

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pos that was possible based on the

experience and the relationship that

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you've had with yourself to date.

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Let me show you.

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It's like the universe

is like, let us show you.

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Just how deeply you can love yourself.

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Just how deeply you can access your voice

and the power and the opinion, and the

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bravery, the courage, the stance, the

rebellion against breaking the status quo

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that lives within you, that is plugged

into the universe with all of these gifts.

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It's like this is the base

of the sexy, rebel spirit.

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It's like these three things.

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You know, life can take us into one.

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Like I said, I went

into spirituality first.

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It was like the uncovering that happened.

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To then bring me into body to

then realize it's like, oh, maybe

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I do wanna say, Hey, I'm bi.

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Or maybe I do wanna be able

to say I disagree with that.

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Or maybe I do wanna talk about

spirituality with the everyday

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person who might think I'm nuts

because I'm brave enough to do it.

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Because I'm rebellious enough to

say what is, I'm rebellious and

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brave enough to say what is truth,

and that's why this space exists.

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So here.

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I'm so glad that you are brave enough

to walk yourself into this space,

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and let me just pour into you so

that you can match this frequency.

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You can start to calibrate to the

portal that is opening in this space.

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It's why it's a paid space.

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It's why it's not free.

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It's why it requires that

commitment and energy exchange

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and that I'm only in myself.

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Type energy around it, because

this is where it all changes

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and this is the safe space.

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Anyone who's willing to commit to

this space is willing to hold you

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in your voice, in your power, when

you wanna express something that

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you've been afraid of, that you've

been shameful of, that you have been

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not wanting to admit or you haven't

had another space to talk about in.

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This is where that happens, and that's

why this is the calibration point for

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all of us who are making that commitment

to step in and show up and allow the

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spirit and source universe, mother Earth,

or whatever language feels really good

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for you, allow that to pour into you.

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Through my voice, through my

energy, through my gifts, into

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this space, into all the different

things that are gonna evolve here.

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And if you wanna step forward and work

it in close proximity, 'cause your leg.

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Thank you for pouring into me.

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I love this space, but I

wanna go deeper and faster.

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I wanna uncover my gifts, my rebellion,

my voice, my sovereignty, my sexuality.

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I wanna unpack it all,

and I wanna do it fast.

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Like there is opportunities

to work one-on-one in close

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proximity with me as well.

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But just know that while

you're in this space, and yes,

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it's just a telegram thing.

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This don't be fooled, this

little telegram space.

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This is the portal to it all.

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So I'm so glad that you're here.

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Thank you for witnessing me in my journey.

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Every time a transmission comes in, I'm

going to just pop in and drop it down.

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Like it could be one thing a day,

10 things a day, you know, maybe

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nothing for a couple of days, and

then a whole bunch, um, will come in.

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This is not a scheduled.

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Predetermined.

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Nothing is written down.

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This is just us in source, being

willing to trust what is coming

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through and to say it, to claim

it, to share it, to unpack it.

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I'm gonna drop a thread below if you have

any questions, topics, things that are

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brewing within you, anything that you

wanna share from your week, your day.

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Let's start pouring that into this

space because energy responds to energy.

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The more that you show in and put

your intention on, even if you just

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wanna send it in the ether as you're

listening to this, you're like,

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I wanna really unpack this thing,

like send it into the ether of this

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calibration portal and we will get there.

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Nothing is off the table.

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This is a brave space and I am so

glad you're here and I cannot wait.

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To see what unfolds.

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I love you and I will speak to

you in the next transmission.