5. Letting the Journey Unfold - Without Needing to Know What’s Next

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I'm Andrea Lee Matthies, writer, photographer, and Clairvoyant Medium, and this is the Bold, Brave Woman Project. This podcast is a living, breathing, unfolding of what it really means to step into our becoming. Born from the ashes of a failed YouTube channel, this weekly podcast brings you real unfiltered moments of failure, of bravery, and of deep intuitive knowing, so that you too can step into who you are becoming with even more trust and bravery. Let's dive in.

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[00:00:38] I've been in so much contemplation over the last couple of weeks. It feels like a lifetime, honestly, a lifetime since that event, That really. Just shook up everything and made me really start to question who am I and what is it that I want? And

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[00:01:13] what is it that I really, really wanna do? And one of the things that, I keep coming back to is I love this podcast. Like this podcast honestly brings me such. Such joy, and I'm gonna do an episode next week on my journey to podcasting because it wasn't smooth sailing, it wasn't

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[00:02:00] Really allowing myself to be in the channels, be in the energy of bringing through words and expression, not just for myself. Yes, there is a part of this podcast, which is about harnessing bravery to. To know that I'm worthy of putting my voice out in the world, which is so important, particularly as women, to really step into the energy of worth and value from that inside the inside job perspective.

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[00:03:01] type roles, when I was in that corporate world, he was a mentor for me, not just from a strategic perspective, but also he's a psychologist. So just from a really beautiful, grounded perspectives of what it can look like to really tap into who we are and embrace not just our flaws, but also these beautiful gifts that we have.

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[00:03:45] But putting that aside, we were talking about the podcast and I guess with his strategic hat on, he was mentioning that podcasts are a marketing tool or a tool to really elevate yourself and your rep reputation as an expert in your industry. To be able to showcase that. Really, that is the main function for a podcast.

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[00:04:39] Trying to figure out my job title and my career and my offers and all of those things, and following an energy of defining myself by those things down that pathway. This need or this desire to actually use podcasting expression as a form of creativity is really revealing itself, which is just so magical.

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[00:06:05] And I said to him, it's like I'm pouring so many hours into this business, but rather it be from this hustle energy. It's coming from this beautiful place of there is so much coming through, so much excitement, so much insight, so much joy, so much in those creative flows that's coming through that I am.

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[00:06:48] Insight to be found here by allowing myself to actually switch modes from always being either academic and strategic and working hard from a, I have to get to this point, or I have to monetize in this way, or follow these rules or expectations. Actually allowing myself and giving myself permission to approach this in a different way

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[00:07:36] You know, we wanna live often in the space of certainty because certainty is safe. It's safe for the body, it's safe for the nervous system, particularly if we have any old energy or conditioning or beliefs from the past or past lives or ancestral lines that make us feel like we need to do things a certain way or guarantee things to ensure safety, to avoid certain circumstances or situations that.

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[00:08:40] Like I've studied so many of these beautiful concepts and have, you know, had moments of this let go in the past, but there's always been these of yes. But yes, we can do this. But there's always that, but or that point that we get to where we're like, yeah, we probably should go back to this certain thing.

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[00:09:21] Way of doing things, which is often against what some of those natural flows wanna do. So this beautiful shakeup with going to this event and then this deep questioning and there's breakdown and breakthrough and all of the things that I've been going through has landed me in this space at the moment.

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[00:10:09] And every time that. Oh, but maybe doing it this way is safer, or this is the way experts do it. You should do it this way. Or This is how you monetize, or this is how you, as soon as I get that feeling of this is how you, or you should, I just keep coming back to this space of like, no. I'm here to create my own path.

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[00:10:55] But this notion of really trusting ourselves is so important. And so coming back in those wobbly moments of like, no. I feel it. I feel that there is something magical here. I feel that there is something that exists either in the quantum realm, and I'll dive into that in a later episode, but exists in thequantum realm or exists in the potential field of possibility that I can create something from this. And just allowing ourselves to breathe and come back to that moment, to that realization and then follow it. And it's been, honestly, it's been exceptional just coming back to these moments of trust in this last week or so because all of a sudden.

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[00:12:06] There's something here for me. Even if it's just this beautiful journey of self-discovery and creativity and I land in another magical. Incredible place down the track, like I'm, I'm okay with that. I'm harnessing this ability to just go with the flow, allowing monetization and money and things to come in through some of the channels that exist that perhaps are not aligned, but I'm allowing them to fund this channel of new opportunity.

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[00:12:49] working as a phlebotomist or in my, corporate careers as strategist. And sometimes these roles in these jobs can either feel all consuming and that you have no bandwidth to be able to think about anything else, or you're so excited about what you're moving into.

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[00:13:48] Be witness of what is happening and this frustration that's being created, but make this intentional choice of knowing that there will come a time where I can switch over. You know, allowing myself to be in the job and switching the intention, the energy around it, and being like, this situation right now is funding this beautiful new version of me that I'm stepping into.

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[00:14:51] And walk away from. And that in itself is really scary of not knowing what you're gonna go to. But trust me, the universe will always catch you there if you have trust around what it is that you wanna step into. The universe will always catch you. It will always find a way if you start trusting and calibrating your energy to the realization and to that energy of I am supported.

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[00:15:38] I've actually been listening to, um, this incredible woman who runs the Manifest 12 Club. Um, if you haven't looked her up yet, please do the Manifest 12 Club on Instagram. She talks a lot about quantum manifestation and allowing ourselves to really deeply change the frequencies that we're aligned to, to manifest And it all comes back to trust.

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[00:16:30] I don't have to follow the five step plan of doing X, Y, Z in this order that every expert and every social media person says, I'm actually gonna trust. I can carve a unique path for myself. I can get out of the situation the feeling, the energy that I'm in by powerfully and intentionally and consciously making the choice to change, to choose trust, to allow myself to follow the things that interest me.

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[00:17:25] instead of actually being the creative mind that is playing with color and line, he's like, I'm having to now think about prompt, like become an expert, prompt engineer.

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[00:18:02] This is the thing that I have defined myself by this career, this job title, this way of being like. What do I do next? And I've been in the thick of this over the last couple of weeks the most powerful thing is to just allow that spark of curiosity to reignite within you and then follow it and follow it with this beautiful energy of trust.

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[00:18:56] Honestly, sometimes it just comes back to that. I haven't had the permission from myself. And we're not necessarily talking about permission for others. Sometimes we are in situations where we are controlled by others' decisions. I've been in relationships of severe control and, that can be difficult and it's sometimes it's not until we,release ourselves from those relationships, that we can actually realize that we now need to give ourselves permission. We're so used to being told what we can and can't do from an external authority, that we still need to give ourselves permission to follow this curiosity, to see where it takes us.

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[00:20:12] I'll be like. No way. That's never gonna happen, And so right now your current version of you might not even be able to comprehend. What is coming for you?

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[00:20:48] And so right now in this beautiful permission energy that I'm wrapping around myself, I'm just saying I give myself permission. I trust this is gonna work out. This curiosity is power. This curiosity is power because it is going to allow myself to experience things beyond what I ever thought possible whilst I was trying to keep myself safe.

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[00:21:23] The energy is the same.It's the permission to trust, to follow the power of curiosity, to allow yourself to do it differently, to tap into creativity, to possibility, to dream, to visualize, and to just play honestly, to be in this energy of play.

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[00:22:02] I am choosing this intentionally, even if it doesn't have an end goal or a defined X, Y, Z detail of the thing that I want. You pop in the antenna up and you're sending out this frequency of. This is the energy that I am consciously choosing to step into, and I am open to everything that is a match for that to start manifesting or start dropping into my reality

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[00:22:48] Oh, for some reason I wanna go fly fishing. Or for some reason I wanna go do this thing that I've never done before. Just allowing that to pop in. Will start to change the frequency that you're in, and then these things will start to rapidly drop into your world and it is incredible. I know sometimes scarcity energy can get in there and you're like, well, how?

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[00:23:36] And sometimes, like I said, the first step is just giving ourselves permission to be curious and creative. And just allow the rest to unfold, to be detached, to be unattached to the outcome. Because sometimes when we attach to an outcome of like, oh, it has to be this way, and we are super rigid and super focused on that exact thing, sometimes it can be really hard to get there.

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[00:24:18] So just allowing ourselves the breath of like, you know what? I might be scared. I might be afraid. I might not have it all figured out. I might not have certainty. But just in this moment, I just choose curiosity. I choose bravery to choose curiosity. I just wanna be bold in this moment. Just take a breath and have trust and whatever is gonna unfold is going to be good because I have this intentional energy of having an amazing life.

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[00:25:10] flow through me that I wanna start publishing on Substack and in other places, to just be what they are.

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[00:25:43] that we can just have these joyful lives. That's the goal and I cannot wait to see what unfolds for us as we take each step in this process of allowing, because we are here to do incredible, incredible things.

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