Episode 7
7. Making the Move Before You’re Ready: Creativity, Identity & Trusting the Unknown
Sometimes we wait until everything feels perfectly clear before making a move. But what if clarity only comes after the leap?
In this deeply personal episode, I share what it’s been like to stand in the in-between: dismantling old boxes, feeling the pull of creativity, and learning to show up before I feel “ready.” I talk about moving beyond performance, letting go of perfection, and allowing creative energy to be a way of being, not a side project.
If you’ve ever hidden, waited, or told yourself you need a label before you can act, this episode is for you.
Topics Covered
- How to take inspired action before you feel ready
- Releasing performance energy and perfectionism in creativity
- Dissolving identity boxes and labels to find freedom
- Allowing creativity to be your life force, not just a side project
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Transcript
I'm Andrea Lee Matthies, writer, photographer,
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:and Clairvoyant Medium, and this
is the Bold, Brave Woman Project.
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:This podcast is a living, breathing,
unfolding of what it really
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:means to step into our becoming.
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:Born from the ashes of a failed YouTube
channel, this weekly podcast brings you
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:real unfiltered moments of failure, of
bravery, and of deep intuitive knowing,
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:so that you too can step into who you are
becoming with even more trust and bravery.
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:Let's dive in.
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:Welcome back to another episode
of the Bold, Brave Woman Project.
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:This is a really interesting
episode this week, because this
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:week I wanna talk about, making
a move even before you are ready.
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:And the reason why the timing of this
episode and this conversation is so
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:relevant right now is because it's been a
few weeks now since this big unraveling,
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:this big, upheaval is tipping out and
trying to work through this new identity,
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:this new chapter that I'm stepping into.
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:And there have been so many moments
over the last couple of months where
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:I've just wanted to retreat from it
all where I've just wanted to shut down
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:retreat, mainly because I've not known
what action to take or what move to make,
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:and I've had to just sit with that and
then find reasons why I need to make
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:moves anyway, why I need to continue to
find my voice, find my passion, find my
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:path, and just keep taking steps forward.
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:because sometimes when we're
in that space of not knowing.
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:Who we are not knowing
what we wanna do next.
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:It's so easy to retreat.
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:It's so easy to just fall into that
energy of, well, I don't know who I am.
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:I don't know what I want.
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:I don't know what I wanna do
next, so I'm just gonna hide.
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:I'm gonna shut down.
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:I'm gonna wait until everything
feels perfectly clear.
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:Before I put myself out there, or
before I really take the action or
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:take any kind of action, make any kind
of move, because it's all just too
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:hard, it's too scary, it's too much.
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:And I've had so many moments over the last
couple of weeks where I felt that, and
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:even today, sitting down to record this
episode, I was like, what am I gonna say?
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:Like, I, I don't have
it figured out just yet.
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:So what.
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:What am I gonna say?
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:What's the point of even
recording an episode?
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:I have nothing of value to share
this week, and I had to just sit with
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:that for a moment and be like, no,
I'm just gonna take action anyway.
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:I know I can connect
into the moment and even.
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:Just talking about this feeling
of, I don't exactly know what
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:to say or what move to make,
but I'm gonna make one anyway.
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:Because every time we take a step in the
direction of a dream, any dream we take
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:that inspired action, we put ourselves
out there, it starts to catalyze.
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:Change and manifestation and
movement in our life, in our world,
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:that starts to really move us into
a direction of self-discovery, a
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:direction that we then get to look at.
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:We get to zoom out for a moment and
look at and be like, okay, I took
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:that action and it revealed this.
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:It revealed this thing about myself,
or it revealed this desire that's
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:starting to percolate here, this
dream, this desire, this feeling.
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:Or I took an inspired action, or I
had a conversation, or I recorded
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:this episode and talked about this
thing, and I'm realizing actually
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:that's not for me or that is not
the direction that I wanna head in.
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:And that is all beautiful
feedback as well.
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:It's perfect.
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:It's starting to build that
tapestry of understanding that
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:we have around ourselves and also
around what we wanna create and
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:what we wanna have for our lives.
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:And one of the things that's been
becoming really apparent over the last
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:couple of months is that creativity
and expression is becoming so important
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:in my life and in my identity.
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:Over the last four years since stepping
out of the corporate world into
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:this coaching arena it has been very
focused on what is it that I can teach?
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:What is it that I can mentor or share in?
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:With a very strong kind of
entrepreneurial or corporate perspective.
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:There wasn't a lot of space for pure
creative flow, and that was because
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:I'd made a decision a while ago that
creativity lives in its own camp.
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:It's like in a separate box.
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:I had a really interesting experience, um,
in relationship with creativity, Which I,
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:I think I've touched on in a few episodes
briefly, and I'm sure will come up many
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:times over the course of sharing all these
different stories about my life with you.
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:But when I was a child, I was very
creative and I had a beautiful
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:relationship with my grandmother who.
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:She taught me a lot of creative
principles, but at the same time,
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:there was a lot of critique around it.
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:You know, you didn't do this right
or you could've done that better, or,
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:you know, you'll never be an artist
if you don't approach it in this way,
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:or that sloppy work, like there was
a lot of critique around these joyous
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:moments of let's go and paint, or
let's go create, let's go collage.
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:We did a lot of creative things
together, but at the end of that
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:activity, there was a lot of critique.
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:And so over the years I'd kind of popped
creativity, expression, um, artistry into
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:this separate box that was like, let's
not touch that unless we can get it right.
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:You know, unless, uh, we can
get it perfect, we can nail it.
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:We've got mastery and skill and
artistry at the highest level.
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:It's kind of keep that off to the side.
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:And I progressed into very strategic
um, logical based careers and
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:worked in that for a long time.
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:That when I started my coaching business
after, having a major health breakdown
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:and having my hysterectomy, which
I've touched on a couple of times.
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:It wasn't until that moment that
I started this reflection process
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:of what is it that I really want?
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:That was their four.
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:Uh, four years ago now of really wanting
to step into more and more of who I was.
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:And so four years ago, during that
recovery, I decided to step out
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:of being employed as a full-time
corporate strategist, as someone
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:that was climbing the corporate
ladder to get up to that CEO.
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:Highly respected, highly
regarded, very intelligent type.
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:in the corporate world to sidestep
into my own coaching business, which
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:was beautiful because I could start
to bring in some more of the feminine
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:energy, the more of the being in service
of coaching and working particularly
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:with women to really help step them
into their bravery, into their voice.
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:All these different niches that I
started coaching in over the last four
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:years, but creativity was still in.
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:A separate bucket.
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:It was still this untouchable thing,
and it wasn't until recently with
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:this big moment of realizing I, even
though I've made so many changes
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:of stepping out of the corporate
world and starting my own business.
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:I'd still managed to walk myself into
a specific box that had rules around
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:it, and I was still only making solid
moves when I knew that there was safety
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:around that, or I knew what the move was.
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:And I've been looking a lot at my
Instagram feeds, my threads, feeds.
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:Really thinking about.
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:How I've been showing up in these spaces,
particularly publicly, and looking
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:at what I wanna start really stepping
into and even talking about here on
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:the podcast with you, I was looking
at it and thinking, oh my goodness.
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:These posts that I've been
putting out, this presence that
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:I've had, um, particularly on my
Instagram feed at andi.matthies,
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:it's still this element of needing
to show up in a certain way.
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:I haven't really given myself permission
all this time, even though I've been
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:running Instagram now for four years and
let's be honest, not well, and that's
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:part of what we're talking about today.
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:Even although I've been showing up over
the last four years and more con, most
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:consistently since I, um, went to Spain
in September, about two years ago,
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:that trip really solidified this need
to, okay, I am going to start really.
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:Taking Instagram seriously, I'm gonna
show up, I'm gonna, you know, do
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:behind the scene stuff and figure out.
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:You know, trending audios and
popular reels and all that sort
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:of stuff start, stop showing up.
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:Um, more consistently there is still
this element of hiding behind performance
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:that is starting to reveal itself,
especially when I've reflected over
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:the last, you know, week or so over.
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:What is it that my heart
is really calling to?
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:What is it that I wanna set and create
for myself and for my life based on
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:desire rather than based on what I felt
like I needed to do from a corporate
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:world perspective or an entrepreneur
perspective, or even just to almost
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:feel like I have permission to be on
Instagram and show up on social media?
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:And so much of it is in this energy
of performance, and sometimes that
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:can be really a hard, not only to see,
but also to admit both to yourself
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:and even publicly or outwardly.
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:But when we are able to.
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:take that moment and just have a look
at it and realize then we can actually
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:do something with it And so there's
been so much that's kind of coming
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:together over the last couple of weeks
that I'm starting to see to be able to.
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:Make a change and do something different.
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:And so this desire to do something
purely creative, this energy, this
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:need to just express, but not from a.
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:Let's be creative and show up on
social media and perform letting
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:that fall away to just really uncover
that there is this undercurrent of
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:creative energy, of expression that
just wants to flow out into the world
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:to create something different, to
express in a way that pulls together
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:all these different fragments of me.
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:This is what's really, really important.
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:Because what I'm realizing is that for
such a long time I've tried to put myself
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:into specific categories of identity or
specific boxes to try and feel whole.
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:You know, we find a box and then we, we
label it and we put ourselves into it and
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:we pour all of the pieces of ourselves
into this box mainly to try and feel
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:safe because when we can label it, when
we can identify it, and when the world
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:can also identify with it, it feels safe.
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:It's like, I'm safe within
this title of this box of
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:entrepreneur, of whatever it is.
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:And there's a million different labels
and boxes that we could name here, but
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:we find the safest box that fits the
phase of life that we're in right now.
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:We pour all of ourselves in it and then
we act accordingly from that space.
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:But what happens when we start dissolving
all of those boxes is that we can.
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:Feel, and we've talked about it a
little bit here, that space of the
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:void, that space of the unknown, it's
like no longer is there a box for
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:the world, myself, my family, for
anyone to be able to identify me by.
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:So now I'm awash, and now I
don't know what I'm doing and I'm
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:gonna hide until I figure it out.
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:I'm gonna retreat, I'm gonna retract,
I'm gonna pull back in myself.
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:I'm gonna hide.
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:And if I do happen to show up, I'm
gonna do it in that performative or
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:perfectionist type energy because it's
safer and the world can understand it.
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:So therefore, it's just easier
for me to navigate the world in
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:a way that others can place me.
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:And I guess this happens in all phases.
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:In all areas of life.
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:If I reflect back to, you know, my primary
school and secondary school years, and I.
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:I can see how I tried to pour myself into
boxes back then that different peer groups
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:or parents or teachers or people outside
of school and within my life could easily
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:label me and say, well, Andrea, is this.
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:Or Andrea's that, or she's a
good girl, she's this or that.
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:So many different labels,
so many different boxes.
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:And even through my corporate life up
until recently, putting myself into
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:the, I'm a strategist or I'm a coach,
or I'm a this or I'm, I'm a, that.
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:And then recently deciding to dismantle
all of those boxes and strip it all
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:back to, to understand what is here.
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:It's like, well, how am, how am I
meant to put myself out in the world
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:if I don't understand what box I'm in?
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:Because it makes it really hard to put
together a Instagram reel, uh, if I don't
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:know the label or the box that I'm in.
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:And so I just kind of withdrew.
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:And hid and contracted all the way back
and went, oh, well, I'll just reshare some
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:stuff, or I'll just remix some reels, or
I'll just put out inspirational quotes.
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:And of course those things are
beautiful and I make sure there's
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:a, there's a beautiful message
for people behind those things.
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:But there's still done from an energy
of: Well, it's, I don't feel safe.
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:I don't know how to label myself,
so I'm just gonna put that out
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:there with the energy of service.
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:But from this pulled back, reserved
perspective, and you might feel
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:yourself doing that in certain
parts of your life as well.
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:It's like, well, I'm a little bit unsure.
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:I don't know where I'm at.
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:I dunno what box I'm in, or I'm in a
particular box and I don't like it and
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:I'm waiting to get out of it, so I'm just
gonna, present in this way because it's
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:safe and it's still acceptable and it's
still in a beautiful energy of service.
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:But you can feel that withdrawal.
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:You can feel it feels sticky.
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:I don't know about you, but when
I turn up to post on Instagram at
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:the moment, there's still this.
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:Ickiness this stickiness of like,
ugh, I know I need to put something
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:out, a, to please the algorithm to
make sure I'm still relevant, but
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:also because I wanna be of service to
people and I wanna, you know, share
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:these thoughts that are coming through.
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:But I'm gonna do it with this kind of easy
to apply quick, just get it up there kind
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:of energy or, you know, you pour hours and
hours and hours and hours into one reel
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:because you're unsure and you wanna get
it perfect and you need to play it safe.
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:There's still that energy that's
incongruent with this beautiful,
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:powerful essence that resides within
us that doesn't really wanna hide and.
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:Wants to be out in the world, but
is we are kind of trying to play
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:it safe before we put it out there.
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:And this is where we need to, and I'm of
course saying this to myself every single
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:day and even in this moment, it's like
we need to take the inspired action in
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:the direction that we wanna go in that,
that sacral rule, fire desire that is
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:starting to awaken in us, even if we are
not used to kind of feeling desire, if
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:we're used to just playing it safe and
following the definitions or the rules
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:of the life that's been set out for us.
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:It's like really coming back to, just
finding that tiny little flicker of
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:flame, or if you're used to really
being in touch with your desire and
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:what you want and who you are and your
sacral fire, like stepping into that
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:burning flame and being like, I am
gonna show up with an inspired action
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:knowing that that inspired action will
lead to more and more and more clarity.
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:And I don't need to wait to have a
defined box before I put myself out there.
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:What I have to say right here, right
now is just as powerful and it's just
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:as potent as it is now without having
to be for something particular or to
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:fit a certain stereotype or certain safe
kind of construct that I need to have
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:before I'm gonna put myself out there.
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:It's like no, decide that it's safe
enough just to step up to that, that
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:altar, that microphone, that social media
creative project, that conversation,
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:that email, that request, I'm just gonna
show up in the energy of knowing that I
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:am safe no matter what my definition is.
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:No matter whether I'm in a box outside
of a box, breaking down the box, I'm
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:safe and I'm gonna take that inspired
action to get me into movement,
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:to move towards the dream that I'm
having, particularly harnessing that
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:creative force that exists within
and around you that you can tap into.
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:Because what I'm really discovering in
this process is that all of those times
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:that I popped myself into a, strategic
thinking, brain, logical type construct,
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:and I either popped creativity to the
side or I made it something that was
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:outside of me, or sometimes I even
remember thinking, oh, that's a luxury.
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:Like, I don't have time to be creative.
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:I need to make money or I need
to do this thing that is gonna
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:drive to this particular outcome.
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:I'll get to creative when I
have time, or for purposes
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:that drive towards those goals.
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:So it's like, oh, I'll, I'll make
my branding pretty, or I'll allow
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:the creative energy in because
it's going to drive me towards
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:these safe box like constructs.
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:And the creative energy is
still kind of on the outside.
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:It's still kind of like a tool
rather than a way of being.
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:And here's the most interesting thing
that I'm discovering, that I, I've
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:always had this deep yearning, this deep,
knowing that creativity was important.
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:That I loved it.
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:You know, I think back to when I was
a child and just how many hours I
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:spent being creative before I let that
complex critique narrative take over
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:and change the definition or change
the feeling around creative energy.
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:This want, this desire to be
creative has always been there
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:and it's taken this moment of.
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:Really unpacking who it is that I am
and what it is that I wanna move into.
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:And even although I don't
have a lot of that defined.
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:This desire to allow creative energy
to move through me in unique, different
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:interesting ways, ways that they,
that it hasn't moved previously.
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:Perhaps.
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:You know, back when I was a child, it was
painting, it was collaging, it was very.
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:Hand on canvas or hand on paper type art.
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:And I, I had those mediums as
the definition of creativity
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:for such a long time.
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:But what I'm realizing is that
creative energy is like life force.
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:It's like flow.
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:It's very similar to if you are a
channeler or if you're used to receiving
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:messages and energy from the ether.
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:It's that type of feeling where you
exist in your own body, in your own
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:form, but there's this feeling, there's
this flow, there's this sparkle, this
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:energy that kind of exists around you.
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:And you feel it wanting to come
through you and land in some sort
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:of a medium, whether that's on
the paper, whether that's through
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:music, whether that's through
speaking in a podcast or on stages.
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:There so many infinite amounts of
creative pursuits acting, gosh, we
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:could listen for days, but I won't.
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:But you feel this buzz, this electricity,
this energy that just kind of like, exists
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:and floats in the ether just outside of
you that is wanting to land somewhere and
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:you feel it, and you, you might have those
moments where you allow yourself to just.
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:You know, dabble with it.
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:You just grab it for a few minutes and
be like, oh, that's fun, that's creative.
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:And sometimes the logical mind, this
is what my mind used to do, would be
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:like, oh no, I don't have time for that.
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:Gotta go do this important, serious,
logical, you know, structural based thing
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:based on the box and the life that I
have, and also time and a whole bunch of
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:other constructs that we have around us.
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:So I'll come back to that.
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:Or we might have moments, and
I've had this as well, where the
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:creative energy comes in and we are
like, yes, I'm gonna do this thing.
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:I'm gonna write this thing.
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:And we allow it to kind of
pour in and pour through.
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:But then.
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:Based on the identity or the construct
that we're in at the time, we're
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:like, well, I don't know what to
do with this, or This is different,
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:it's outside what I'm doing now.
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:I'm confused.
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:Am I meant to be doing this thing
over here that's flowing through me?
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:Or you know, should I go back to
the sure thing or the thing the
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:industry experts say and we end
up in this really confused space.
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:And I, I'm really saying this
'cause this is definitely something
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:I've lived that I'm like, oh,
well now it's just another idea.
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:Now I don't know what to
do now I'm overwhelmed.
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:Doesn't make sense.
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:I can't get the logical construct to
really wrap around this, so I'm just gonna
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:park it or I'm just gonna be like, Ugh.
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:But.
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:Can turn it inwards sometimes and be like,
well, I'm just having too many ideas.
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:I'm just someone that has too many
ideas and doesn't action any of them.
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:So I retreat, I park it, I retreat and
go back into either the hiding state
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:or the usual kind of normal life state.
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:Sometimes robotic state of going through
the motions and that creative energy
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:or those creative ideas still tend
to remain separate or outside of us.
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:And worst case, uh, in the back recesses
of a laptop hard drive or in a shelf
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:somewhere collecting dust in a notebook.
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:And so what I'm realizing is that,
there is this beautiful opportunity
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:for us to actually bring the creative
energy in to become part of who we are
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:to not so much become a box because
we can do that, but that also sets
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:up this kind of like boundary or
limitational wall on the creativity and
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:also can put pressure on us to be like.
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:Now I am a painter, and so that's
what I'm gonna do all of the time.
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:And if I can't, if I have moments
of not being inspired, um, therefore
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:I'm failing and I'm not an artist.
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:Like we can, our mind will play all
of these types of old stories in all
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:conditionings and random things from
society, random things from movies.
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:It will try and tell you these
stories to keep yourself safe.
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:But what I am discovering through
this whole process is that this
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:flame, this fire, to be creative,
to be expressive, it is not a.
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:A temporary coach that I wanna wear, it is
not a, a nice to have that I wanna have.
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:It is actually core to me as a being, as
someone who is made up of source energy,
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:of energy, of vibration, of frequency.
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:It is part of me.
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:It is something that moves through me.
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:It is essential to me, and I want to start
to give myself permission, and I am doing
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:that now, is I give myself permission to
allow this creative energy to be me, to
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:allow myself to bring it into my everyday.
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:And I've been doing a lot of contemplation
over the last few weeks to understand.
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:Where does this creative
energy start for me?
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:Like, what does this look like?
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:Is it the traditional forms
that I was trained in when I was
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:young of oil painting and, uh,
collage and a few other things?
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:And it's not, they were just these
beautiful activities that I did at
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it, it's coming from a different
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my mom yesterday and she,
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grandmother's original typewriters.
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some, um, fresh typewriter ribbons.
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wants to get onto the typewriter.
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of typing on the keys to allow
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I wanna capture women and architecture
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because I have been someone who has
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before, such a restrictive, resistive
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is the best way to be on Instagram with
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key influencer and blah, blah, blah.
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all of that back to be like, how do I
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around me and that is part of me and
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seemingly out of nowhere.
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guided and it's perfectly timed.
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now to pick up the camera.
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typewriter, with the writing, with the
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I can then share on social media.
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seen me over the weekend.
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my brains this question, um,
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post-it notes and a texter and cleared the
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down everything that came into my mind.
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you can't do that or a creative idea.
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this creative energy that's flowing
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comes to no longer hiding and showing
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the world, what does that look like?
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getting all of the resistance, all
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my head onto random post-it notes.
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on everywhere and we couldn't
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by connecting into that, like what
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universe source my team?
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:What is.
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here to be able to start making a
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see, even though I have a lot of fear
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the surety of, you know, knowing
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well, what will people think?
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new Instagram account?
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the moment 'cause I absolutely trashed it.
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have, um, fancy photography yet.
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photography course, both the
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to learn how to use the camera.
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a camera and a bunch of lenses.
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to figure out how to use it and I
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weekend, which I'm feeling so much more
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to the, the camera gear and the things.
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these Post-It notes, I'm like,
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feed of my photography because
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of like, well, if I don't have the
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until I've got it right before I take
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'cause I don't wanna be either seen
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seen as a loser or, see it's interesting
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our minds wanna create these little
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where they come from, but I just
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notes and sorted it through.
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interesting, and this is something
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wheelhouse, my desire, something
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of I want to show up on Instagram
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curated lifestyle feed, but just I wanna
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of these different creative skills that
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because I'm finally, finally opening
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feed that is like an art portfolio,
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considered before because A, I've.
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was only for the extremely talented,
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expert that I've ever studied under,
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know, performance first, selling first.
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regulations around what is appropriate.
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that was just to be beautiful or
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world that was creative, and that
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and you might be feeling this within
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needs to be a change for you to do
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the beauty of it, for the expression
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because the more that we follow these
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it's creative, it's creative in a
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important because what it's doing is it
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okay to think outside the box that it is.
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we had labeled and popped in other
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ourselves the world didn't want, or wasn't
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have put on them, it starts to
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those old constructs and reclaim.
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ourselves, reclaim some of that energy
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things in separate little pockets and
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:separate little buckets and away from
ourselves to keep ourselves safe.
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that energy back
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ourselves, Hey, it's okay to be whole.
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parts of yourself that you buried such
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such an overwhelming feeling to finally
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look yourself in the eye and say, you
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gonna reclaim all the lost parts of you
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:that you abandoned so long ago to become
whole and to become who you are and It
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taking it to a market or, podcasting
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you wanna take that and reclaim that
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magical and put it out in the world.
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to your soul, to your energy,
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safe to start reclaiming this
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of inspired action, it's like we wanna
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action and to make moves, particularly
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even think we're ready, way before we
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it signals to ourselves that we've
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own back, and that we can do this.
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:Because even although we can go and
work with healers and modalities and
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stuff, and of course so many of those
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incredible, but at the end of the day,
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:It can't come from the outside world
to try and shove or pull the energy
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this energy that exists within us.
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little atom, one tiny little atom
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safety or trust or energy or
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and allow that to be the spark that
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these beautiful kaleidoscopic pieces
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call 'em back home and be like,
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the action that I need to take too.
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:Tell my nervous system that I'm
safe to break myself out of these
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I've held around me to keep safe.
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they're keeping me safe.
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that and creative energy.
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photography classes.
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after this podcast episode to.
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whose work closely mirrors the types
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look, I'm, you know, in this phase of
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feeling called to photography and your
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:Would you be interested in.
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:Sha me shadowing you and you mentoring
me if you've got any shoots coming up.
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and said, yes, absolutely.
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:Come and meet me for lunch and we'll
figure out what shoots you can come on.
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:You know, like even just sending
that email originally, like.
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:There was a part of me that was
like, she's not gonna respond.
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:Like she's not gonna have
time to mentor some beginner.
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:You know, I had a whole bunch of stories
and I almost didn't send the email.
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:Um, but I'm so glad that I did.
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:I just found that tiny little spark in me
that was like, no, there's something here.
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:There's a reason why this is coming to me.
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:Send the email and she wrote back,
and I'm leaving in about 15 minutes
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:And these are the things that
can completely change our lives.
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:I don't know what's gonna be on the
other side of starting this Instagram
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:feed and right now as it stands,
um, I don't even have a clear vision
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:I'm, I'm starting to.
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:Get little glimpses of that and
some things that I'm seeing,
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:you know, in Pinterest and
other feeds that I'm like, oh, I
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:You know, I'm gonna reboot an
old Instagram account if you
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:wanna follow me on this journey.
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:Um, it's going to be my original
account that I started years ago.
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:It's Path, PATH and nine
P-A-T-H-A-N-D-N-I-N-E,
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:path, and nine on Instagram.
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:You know, I'm going to just turn
this into the art feed and my other
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:handle that I use on Instagram, Andy
Matthews, I'm gonna change that too.
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:I'm gonna make it less about having
to show up and be in a certain way
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:or you know, sh show in a certain
way and try and please the algorithm.
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is gonna look like in terms of showing
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:the behind the scenes of this art feed.
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I haven't quite figured that one out yet.
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:That one might take me a little bit more
time, and there's probably a little bit
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:more mopping up energetically that I need
to do around letting myself just be seen.
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always polish something.
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:And I'll need to think about how to reboot
the algorithms, um, view of that account.
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:Um, but right now, path Nine,
this new account, I'm just
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and show up in that space.
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:See where this photography goes.
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:Keep taking classes, you know, dust
off these typewriters that I just
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:got yesterday and start writing.
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:I really wanna.
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:Just channel through poetry that are
typed on these typewriter, you know, get,
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:um, if anyone's listening and they want
a, a little channeled poem, you know,
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:we can get you to send me a photograph
of, of a, of yourself or a memory or
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:something from the past, and I'll connect
with that energy and just, you know,
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:create these beautiful poetry pieces.
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corporate, the entrepreneur version of
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:me would've been like, that's crazy.
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:Can't monetize that.
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:You know, where's the growth strategy?
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:Where's the blah, blah, blah, you
know, construct around that to, you
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:know, write off these kinds of ideas.
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:But this phase.
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listening to our energy, to our deeper
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:selves, and we need to allow what that
reveals, what that voice is telling us.
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:We need to allow ourselves to start.
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:Finding safety in these new constructs
because these are reflections and glimpses
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:of our soul, essence of who we truly are.
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:When we strip back all of the
labels, all of the roles, all of the
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:expectations that society puts on us.
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:The things that we're so used to doing,
it allows us to kind of get underneath
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:all of that and see what's really
here and see what's really important.
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:And I'm realizing that I wanna leave
behind the correct proper entrepreneur
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:and even, you know, successful expert
coach slash mentor titles and boxes aside
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:and step into this new energy identity.
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:But bigger than that, this new, um, phase
of allowing artistry to flow through me.
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:What does it look like to be an artist?
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:To be a creative, to actually, I.
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why I'm here from a creative,
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:connected, artistic energy flow
perspective, what does that look like?
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:Because I've never given myself
permission to do that before, but
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:I am feeling and hearing so loud
and clear that that is something.
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:We need to listen to that
to allow that to come in.
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need to find safety around strategy
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:and success in entrepreneurship and
corporate, if we look at some of the
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:most incredible inventions, products,
and companies that exist, they came from
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:the creative spark, from someone who was
willing to be brave enough to listen to
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:a creative idea that they had something
that floated past them on the ether, for
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:them to be brave enough to grab hold of.
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to come through them.
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:That is how some of the most
incredible things that we have, that
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become engineering technology, have
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:become into that strategic energy
and masculine energy eventually.
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dream, to be creative, and to then take
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I, when I sat down, uh, to even
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:record this episode, I was like, what
am I even gonna talk about today?
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:Like, I don't have anything specific.
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:I don't have a particular plan,
lesson, message to share today.
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:But allowing myself to be in the
inspired action of, I'm just gonna
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:talk about what is here for me right
now, which is this exploration of
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:creativity and this battle that I had
on the weekend of trying to figure out
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:Just taking inspired action and
trusting yourself enough to put pen
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:to paper, to pick up that tool, that
camera, that microphone, to just
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:take the inspired action to record
the episode, to just share what is
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:coming through you is so powerful and
each time you do it, it creates these
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:incredible ripple effects that just
change your life that you just will
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:never regret, for the rest of your life.
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:And even if you can't see, just
taking that first inspired action
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:and the next little inspired action.
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:finding that tiny little atom, that
spark of creativity or that massive
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:fire that exists that you're ignoring.
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:Just taking that and following that,
wherever it will go, is going to be
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:incredible Because not being able to
see it doesn't mean that it doesn't
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:exist or doesn't mean that it's not
gonna blow your mind or take you
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:somewhere that's going to be incredible.
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:Down the track.
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:Just have faith, trust.
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:Take that inspired action.
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:Even if you're afraid, even if you
don't want to, even if your mind
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:wants to tell you something like it's
not gonna work out or it's scary,
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:just come back to that fuel, to that
fire to the reason why you're here.
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:The fact that you're made a frequency
and energy and source, and just take
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:that inspired action today because.
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:This journey is wild.
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:It is incredible.
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:It is powerful.
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:And the more we do it, the more we
follow it, the more our lives are
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:gonna be so much more fulfilling and
so much more adventurous because we
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:just continue to trust and we continue
to move Because we're worth it.
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:I love you and I'll see
you in the next episode.
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:Thank you so much for
tuning into today's episode.
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:If you wanna check out all of the
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:podcast, make sure you subscribe to my
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:You will also be able to find me on
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