8. How to Keep Going When It Feels Like Nothing Is Changing
Some days it feels like nothing is shifting - your bank account looks the same, the room you wake up in hasn’t changed, and the brave steps you’ve taken don’t yet show in your outer world. But this doesn't mean things aren't changing.
In this episode, I open up about those moments of doubt, the pull to return to what feels safe, and what it takes to keep going when everything feels like it's not working.
Topics Covered
- How to keep believing in yourself when reality looks unchanged
- The difference between fear-based pushing and soul-aligned bravery
- Navigating doubt, exhaustion, and the pull of safety versus expansion
- Seeing challenges and opportunities as portals into your next becoming
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Transcript
I'm Andrea Lee Matthies, writer, photographer,
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:and Clairvoyant Medium, and this
is the Bold, Brave Woman Project.
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:This podcast is a living, breathing,
unfolding of what it really
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:means to step into our becoming.
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:Born from the ashes of a failed YouTube
channel, this weekly podcast brings you
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:real unfiltered moments of failure, of
bravery, and of deep intuitive knowing,
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:so that you too can step into who you are
becoming with even more trust and bravery.
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:Let's dive in.
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:Welcome back to another episode
of the Bold, brave Woman Project.
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:Today I wanna talk about.
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:How to keep the faith in yourself and
what you are moving towards, even when
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:things feel like they're not progressing.
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:And the reason I wanna talk about
this is, this is something that's
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:been cropping up for me a little bit
lately, especially with all of these.
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:Big dreams and ambitions that are starting
to awaken within me, and I'm starting to
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:take steps towards this new creative and
photographic and new version of myself.
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:But some days I wake up and
I look around and I think.
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:Everything looks exactly the same as
it did yesterday, as it did last week.
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:Is this really working?
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:And the answer is always, yes.
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:Yes it is.
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:And sometimes the progress
that is happening for us is
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:something that we can't see.
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:Even although we are making the moves,
we're making the steps, we're doing the
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:inner work, we're progressing, and the
reality isn't necessarily changing around
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:us that we can see through our eyes or
experience with our senses just yet.
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:But there's a whole.
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:Invisible field of energy,
of quantum reality.
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:That is shifting, that is changing,
especially when we're doing the inner
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:work to change who we are and how
we're stepping up into this reality
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:that quantum field is changing even
though we can't see it, and it is.
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:so that the work and the world that we're
really craving for can come to fruition.
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:Now, this can be really, really
challenging and this is something
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:that I've sat with a lot this week
because it is so easy to fall into the
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:old trap, the old conditioning, the
old emotion that I'm still stuck or.
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:I'm not moving forward, particularly in
society when we have this construct called
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:Time and we have this whole process that's
going on within our body that is aging.
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:There are some days where I wake up and
I'm like, oh, I've just spent another
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:week working on this thing, yet I don't
have anything tangible yet to show for it.
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:Or, you know, I'm, I'm another.
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:Six months, 12 months older, have I
really progressed in the way that I.
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:Thought I should or that I
thought I would, or am I achieving
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:the things according to what a
42-year-old should have achieved
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:or have or do by now and this age.
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:This time, construct can really,
if you let it run away with you and
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:your mind just goes down these rabbit
holes, and sometimes you can end up
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:in that place of despair of like.
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:Well, no I'm not and I should have
had this and I should have had that.
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:And we get into this should mindset
and all of a sudden we are just
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:feeling that sense of lack and we
are feeling that sense of I'm a
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:failure or I'm not where I should be.
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:Nothing is working.
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:And we end up in that negative
spiral all, and we all know what
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:happens when that spiral takes hold.
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:We end up back into that
place of nothing's working.
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:what am I doing this for?
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:and that type of thinking is what actually
puts us back into energetic stasis.
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:It's not that we can't see the things
that are unfolding, they're not the
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:things that are creating the stasis.
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:It's this thinking.
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:That we are not progressing because
it's like slamming the gates down
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:on any progress, any abundance
that's flowing through to us, it
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:just closes that off immediately.
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:the question then becomes.
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:How do we stay motivated and
connected to the greater vision,
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:connected to ourselves, to who we're
becoming in those moments when it
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:feels like nothing is progressing?
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:And what I think is the key here.
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:Is to create the vision so big
and so bright and so brave for
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:ourselves, that continues to reignite
this passion, this spark, this
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:motivation to keep stepping forward.
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:I'm gonna be really honest.
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:There are still days where I wake up
and I'm like, what on earth am I doing
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:like this journey of entrepreneurship,
of creativity, of being an artist,
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:and particularly starting new in a
creative field like photography, like
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:essentially I'm having to start at
the bottom because I never studied
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:photography when I was in school.
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:You know, I, I've waited until my
40th years to decide to pick up a
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:camera and to decide to reawaken all
of this need to express and to see
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:and to translate beauty in the world.
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:And there are moments, particularly
this week, 'cause it's been quite
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:a big week, where I've woken up and
I'm like, what on earth am I doing?
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:Like just.
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:Go and get a job in the corporate
world again, like go back to the safe,
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:go back to the familiar, lean back
on all of the strategic skills that
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:you have, like just make all of this
stop, essentially, this doubt, this
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:questioning, this, having to wake up and
keep pushing, keep making brave moves.
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:Like just stop it and go
back to where it's safe.
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:That thought has crossed my mind
more times than I like to count.
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:But here's the thing.
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:I made a commitment to myself, as
I'm sure you did too, to be a bold,
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:brave woman who forges a path, who
does what she really wants to do.
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:What is sitting in the base of her soul
that is calling to her to at least.
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:Try to acknowledge to walk forward.
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:That calling is the thing that keeps
stirring within me in those moments
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:where I'm like, just make this stop.
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:Just go back and get a job.
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:Just go back into the corporate world,
back into that high level where you
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:don't have to worry about income.
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:Everything's taken care of.
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:Someone tells you what to do when
you show up at work every day.
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:You do it.
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:You go home, you take your holidays.
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:Life is grand.
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:But here's the thing.
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:That dialogue of life is grand is just
a scarcity, safety craving mechanism and
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:conditioning in my brain that isn't real
because I can guarantee you, and you might
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:know this within your soul too, that if
you go back to that familiar or that safe
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:construct that is old and just exists
within your mind, you'll get one week.
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:One month, six months.
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:It's usually not even that long down
the track of going back into the old,
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:and you'll be like, what have I done?
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:And I know this for myself.
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:I'd be there and I'd be
like, what have I done?
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:Like I just gave up on everything
in those moments that it was hard.
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:Those moments where I couldn't see
the tangible translation in my reality
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:of the things that I was building
because I was afraid to hold on.
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:I didn't think I was strong enough
to just to hold on, to keep stepping
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:forward, and now I'm back in a reality.
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:Like I can feel the emotion coming
up as I'm saying this because I know
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:this is exactly what would happen.
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:I've put myself back into this corporate
reality or back into this safe quote
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:unquote reality, but it's not what I want.
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:Yeah, it might be safe.
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:I might be having a regular paycheck
come in, but really, is that enough?
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:and knowing that that money is there when,
of course society demands income expenses.
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:We've got increased living costs
going on right now, but is just
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:having that safety of going back into
this old paradigm of that paycheck
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:enough to really fulfill my soul.
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:This is a legitimate question that I
will be asking, and I know myself so
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:well that in that moment that I'm asking
myself that question and I'm feeling
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:the constriction, or I'm feeling the
shaving of who I am off to fit back
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:into that corporate box just to exist.
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:I'll be asking that hard question
of why did I abandon myself?
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:Like, is this worth it is.
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:Having to exist within this reality
of, yes, financial safety, but
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:unhappiness of everything else,
is that truly and deeply better?
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:Then holding on in terms of finding
my bravery, allowing my quantum
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:reality to match my current reality
of the life that I wanna have.
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:Is it worth it?
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:That will be a question
that I will have to face.
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:And having been someone that has gone back
into the corporate world, back into the
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:safety net of a job in so many different
careers, having transitioned from so
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:many different careers, I know what the
answer will be and the answer will be.
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:I wish I had trusted myself enough to
follow what my soul was telling me to do.
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:I wish I had given myself the support
to breathe, to know that even on
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:those mornings when I wake up and
the current reality, like the, the
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:place that I'm still living and
the bank account that I still see.
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:I wish I'd given it enough time
and enough trust to catch up with
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:who I know myself to truly be.
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:I wish I'd held on long enough.
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:I know that is exactly what I'll say,
and that is the reason why in these
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:moments when it feels like nothing
is working, when it feels like you
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:haven't progressed and you're stuck,
you're still in the old paradigm.
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:It's why I know that it's
important for me to hold on and
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:this is the big important key.
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:Sometimes these fears feel like truth.
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:They're so used to being
translated in our bodies as truth.
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:These fears that we think they're
real, that we are like, well,
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:of course I have to go back.
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:Or, of course I'm unsafe because
this fear has been here so long.
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:It's part of me.
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:the voice gets so familiar
that it feels real.
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:But there's a big difference between
feeling real and actually being true,
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:like being the truth of your soul and
listening to those fears as we do,
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:and then acting from that place of
contraction, of fear, of scarcity.
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:It has the power to knock us
completely off the trajectory
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:that we're meant to be on.
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:I know for me.
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:Being brave and continually choosing
bravery, continually choosing trust.
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:That is part of this journey, and
I choose to do that for as long
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:as it takes, and that scares the
hell out of me Most of the time.
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:I'm like, what am I doing this for?
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:Especially on the days where I'm tired
or I'm exhausted, when I'm tired, it's
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:so easy for those old fears and that old
scarcity to just creep in and take over.
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:I think in the last episode I shared
that I was meeting this brand new
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:photography mentor for the first time.
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:I was just heading out
to have lunch with her.
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:And I did and it was amazing.
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:She's incredible.
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:We had this beautiful chat and coffee
and she agreed to mentor me and a couple
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:of days later I went along to a shoot
that she was doing a boudoir shoot in her
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:brand new studio that she's just set up
and spent the whole day with her setting
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:up the set Photographing and working with
the model, and then right through the
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:process of editing the photos, doing all
the adjustments right to the final cut.
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:And it was incredible.
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:I fully acknowledge this is an experience
that we don't normally get and.
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:I'm just so grateful that I sent
that cold email to ask her for
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:this mentorship because it, it
completely changed everything
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:for me in that being on that set.
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:There was a part of me that was
awake, that was alive, that was like.
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:this is where I wanna be.
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:This is what I wanna do.
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:Like working one-on-one in this intimate
setting, really reaching into, the
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:depths of their soul to reawaken their
passion, their power, their sexuality,
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:and expressing that through the camera.
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:it set my soul on fire.
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:I got home that night, And I felt amazing.
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:But the next day, I woke up and was all
over the map emotionally, and I was so
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:confused because I was like, how can I
come off the back of such an empowered
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:day, such a, knowing state of this is
what I want and this is what I wanna
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:move into, to waking up the next day
feeling like exhausted and overwhelmed,
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:I was like, what is this energy?
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:And I sat with it for a little bit.
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:and I was like, what is going on here?
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:And what was happening was this quantum
stretch, I'd found another beautiful part
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:of my soul journey that was unfolding.
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:But all of a sudden, all of my
doubt, all of my scarcity, all of
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:my worry was on board and it was
just completely exhausting myself.
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:I didn't realize I had this, unconscious
undercurrent of what if, what if going on?
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:Like, what if I can't afford it?
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:What if, what if, what if?
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:And it overnight and during the morning
had just completely depleted me that I had
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:gone from this massive high down into the.
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:Well, how and what, and am I good enough?
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:And all of this kind of like just
clumpy type energy and emotion that
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:just brought me all the way down.
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:And the other thing that I decided to do,
which in hindsight, perhaps a little bit
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:of a mistake, but I thought, oh, well, now
that I am wanting to go on this beautiful
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:Trajectory of going down the pathway of
photography and really embracing this
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:stuff and becoming a master at, at my
skills in this space, I'm gonna do my
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:finances and my accounting, my end of
financial year stuff to, you know, just
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:put everything in this beautiful space
of cleanliness so that when I start
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:to embrace this new passion and what
whatever path this takes me on, the
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:abundance is coming into a clean slate.
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:And Oh my goodness, Through a process of
like looking at financial stuff, which,
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:you know, when you're an entrepreneur, it,
there's highs and lows in our businesses.
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:There's peaks and troughs, and
sometimes those troughs get really,
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:really loud and the doubt comes in.
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:And so I just compounded all
of these feelings of doubt of.
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:Well, you know, I'm not a
millionaire yet, so what's the point?
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:Is any of this working?
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:It's like, oh my goodness, I got to the
end of trying to get all my finances
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:done this day, and I was an absolute
wreck and a mess and had convinced
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:myself that everything was impossible.
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:Uh, nothing was gonna turn
around and I should just.
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:Forget it all And the rollercoaster
of this emotion is so, so intense.
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:The next day I did some clearing
work and some grounding work.
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:I'm like, no, you know, this is great.
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:I've got this opportunity.
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:There's a reason why
this was brought to me.
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:Like keep coming back to if
something gets put on your path.
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:If a door opens, if an idea sparks
and takes flight, there's a reason.
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:That's not random.
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:I never believe in it being random.
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:It is timing and it is
energetic intention.
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:And if there's something that
we are meant to be doing, the
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:universe will put us on that path.
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:And there's a reason for that.
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:There's a learning, there's an
expansion, there's a do a door
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:opening or a new identity that's
about to be burst or come through.
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:We have to trust that.
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:And so I was like, no.
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:Okay.
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:There's a reason for this.
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:So I parked, I got the financial stuff.
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:You know, to the point where
I can now hand it over to
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:an accountant, even though.
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:It wasn't a fun process, but
I thought right now I'm gonna
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:go down to my brother-in-laws.
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:'cause he said he is got some more
camera gear, some more things that
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:I can borrow because I am going to
book this incredible shoot on Sunday.
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:It was a portfolio building shoot.
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:I'm gonna book in even though I know
I'm not ready, I'm gonna book into this
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:professional studio based portfolio shoot.
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:And it was a fantasy shoot.
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:I'm gonna do it on Sunday because
I really wanna make this happen.
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:And even though I'm terrified, even,
although I am questioning everything
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:and I know on paper I'm not ready,
I need to just keep diving in.
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:I need to keep being brave.
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:I need to keep making
these moves to make this.
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:Not make, but like allow this
dream to continue to unfold, to
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:allow the trust to build in myself.
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:And the only way to build trust is
for us to make these big, bold moves.
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:And so I paid the investment to go to
this shoot on Sunday and I thought,
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:right, well I need to go and get
more camera gear just because like
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:I'm starting with nothing really.
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:Just this borrowed stuff from
my beautiful brother-in-law.
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:I drove down, you know, it's
like a two hour drive each way.
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:Drove down to their farm and got
to spend some time with them.
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:Picked up the camera gear, brought it
all back, like drove all the way back.
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:Um, this was Friday by this point,
and the shoot was on a Sunday.
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:Talk about tight timelines, but
sometimes we just gotta do it right.
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:So I got all the way back.
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:My husband, he was visiting with
his father, so I had the house to
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:myself and I pulled all the gear out
and I just started playing with it.
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:And I was already exhausted because
I, I had burnt through so much
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:adrenaline and anticipation for a.
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:You know, meeting the new mentor and
then going on the shoot and then doing
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:all the accounting, like I could feel my
reserves of energy starting to deplete.
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:So I'm already starting to feel that
tiredness creep in, but I thought
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:this is important to me, so I'm
gonna push just a little bit more.
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:And so I sat up late after I got back
from the country just playing the
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:gear and learning the settings on the
camera and all this type of stuff.
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:And by the time I went to bed.
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:By like 10, 30, 11, I was like,
oh, this is starting to click.
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:Like, you know, actually, when I had
done the shoot with the photographer on
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:the Wednesday with the boudoir model, we
actually reviewed some of my photos and
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:we could see a whole bunch of errors that
I'd made technically with the camera, but.
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:There was some feedback from her that
said, you know, my composition is good.
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:And so that was a tiny little spark
of like, okay, there's something here.
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:It wasn't all a waste, and so I could
see by this night after I'd finished
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:with the camera gear, I'm like, Ooh,
I'm starting to feel a little more in
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:tuned with, with the gear, with the tech.
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:You know, there's this
little spark of hope.
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:so I went to sleep with this
little like injection of like,
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:okay, I think I can do this.
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:I think I can do this.
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:Just another iota of trust that I could
bring into my body, into my energy
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:field, knowing that what I'm moving
towards is something that is here for
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:me, something that I'm meant to be doing.
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:So just went to sleep with
that, holding that in my body.
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:And I woke up the next day completely
exhausted and I knew I had to still go and
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:sort out some extra camera gear and lenses
to be able to do this shoot on Sunday.
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:So my husband and I drove around a
few camera stores and a few bits and
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:pieces, and I was an absolute zombie.
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:And here's, here is one thing that
I will say is that sometimes that
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:we can push, push, push beyond.
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:Uh, the energy limitations of our physical
body, and we have to be careful of that.
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:There's a difference between.
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:Being abundant and moving with the
energy and being bold, Andre being brave.
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:And then there's the energy of
ignoring what we need and doing
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:it from a, I'm gonna push because.
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:I've convinced myself that I have
to push, that I should push that
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:I am worthless if I don't push.
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:I am a failure if I don't push.
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:And this is a really dangerous energy to
get into because there is moving in the
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:directions of our dreams and being bold
and being brave without that scarcity,
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:fear-based driver behind the pushing.
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:so by Saturday lunchtime, I was
starting to feel the difference between
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:the brave moves and the fear-based
pushing moves, and I had to say to my
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:husband, I'm like, I need to just stop.
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:I need to just spend the rest of the
day just chilling, just doing some
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:meditation, maybe watching a movie,
having a bath, whatever, I need to make
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:this conscious choice right now in this
moment to switch from the, I have to
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:go get these lenses and get everything
perfect and ready for the shoot on Sunday,
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:because otherwise I'm gonna be a failure.
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:I could feel that buzz
starting to happen in my body.
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:I need to go back and Just check out
and do something, chill and relaxing
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:for the rest of the afternoon, because
otherwise I'm gonna charge straight
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:into this photo shoot on Sunday.
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:From a scarce energy, and I could
already feel that anxiety build
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:in my body and start to peak.
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:And we don't wanna do stuff in a state
of anxiety because there is so much
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:energy that we can tap into that can
ground us, that can bring us back to
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:this wholeness, this calmness, this sense
of peace, and then move through bold
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:moves through bravery with this grounded
whole power versus the rattled scarce,
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:running around anxious type energy.
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:And if you can start to notice a
difference in your body when you are
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:wanting to do this big, bold, brave
stuff, just really tapping in and saying,
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:is this coming from a grounded, plugged
in source fueled type bravery move?
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:Or is this being fueled
from an anxious real?
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:Physical, adrenal type, anxious
energy of I have to get this
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:done also, I'm going to fail.
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:If you can start to sense those two
different energy currents and then
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:make the powerful choice to trust
and switch from one or the other,
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:it makes a complete difference.
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:So by the time I got to the last kind
of camera store thing that we had
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:to do on Saturday, I just said to my
husband, I need to just disconnect.
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:And so I came home.
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:I laid down, I did a meditation,
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:But I'm gonna be honest,
I didn't quite nail it.
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:And that's why I really wanted
to raise this with you, to start
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:bringing consciousness around
where we are sourcing energy from.
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:Because I still, even although I
laid down, did meditation, I at
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:some point had decided that this
portfolio shoot on Sunday was
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:the make and break of my career.
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:Like, that is just such
a crazy thing to decide.
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:This is a portfolio shoot that I
had chosen to invest in to gain
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:access to a studio with some fantasy
based sets and models to take
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:photographs to put in my portfolio.
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:And I had somehow made the decision
that if I didn't do a good job at this
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:portfolio, I was a failure A failure
as a photographer, a failure as an
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:entrepreneur, a failure as a woman,
and a human, and a soul on this planet.
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:Like that is a crazy thing to
decide out of nowhere, but this
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:is what we do all of the time.
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:You might be listening to this and think
of like, yeah, I know I do this too.
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:Like there's this thing that I really
know in my soul that I wanna do, or
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:I wanna achieve or I wanna have, and
we create these arbitrary rules and
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:milestones that we determine are make
or break, and it's just not true.
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:And I started to feel this anxiety raise
up within me on Sunday morning as I was
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:getting ready to leave for the shoot.
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:And I, it started to
feel like panic stations.
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that I've bought to have for the shoot.
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heavy and my hands sore.
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to spin up really, really fast with all of
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the water to just wash anything
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anything that's in your energy field.
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to just cleanse it.
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my hair, and it was just like,
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opportunity for me to expand.
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:This doesn't determine
the rest of my life.
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:This is just a learning experience.
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:This is just another bold move that
I'm choosing to make for feedback,
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in whatever way that it's meant
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:All of a sudden it became this portal of
opportunity for me to step through rather
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gonna define me for the rest of my life.
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things, which is the beauty of it.
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creating this massive narrative, this
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or gained something out of something that
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and feel like nothing is shifting.
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beautiful portals that are opening up to
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:be able to step you through to the next
thing that you're meant to experience.
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:The next thing that you're
meant to learn or expand into.
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portals will continue to open
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:So this morning when I woke up and
I started to feel those tentacles of
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I'm still waking up in the same room.
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it's still the same as it was yesterday.
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:It's like, yes, but I have passed
through so many portals this week
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the scenes that are changing things
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within my ability to manage my anxiety
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:when I'm trying to make bold moves.
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:I know that my physical reality
will start to catch up because
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in our energy in who we are and
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physical reality catching up.
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:So if you are having that moment of
despair of, well, I'm this age and I
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all this stuff and it's not changing, or
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like I need to go back to the safe.
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time you choose yourself.
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:Every time you choose to ground,
to come back to your energy to pass
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although it's invisible, even although
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:Your world is changing, and your
reality will start to catch up.
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:Reach out to me.
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:I'm here.
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:I would love to hear about the
bold moves that you're making, the
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:And to celebrate with you because
every time you choose your
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:bravery is another massive step
forward in who you are becoming.
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:I love you and I'll see
you in the next episode.
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:Thank you so much for
tuning into today's episode.
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